The hospital scene in TLD

 (A Sherlock meta conversation between 

consultingbeekeepers, addignisherlock, theconsultingdramaqueen, vulgarweed 

and astudyinsavage)

consultingbeekeepers:



Smith: I have a question for you. Why are you here?
Sherlock: You know why I’m here. 
Smith: I’d like to hear you say it. 
Sherlock: I want you to kill me.

addignisherlock:

this was one of the most heartbreaking scenes in this episode…..but then again this entire episode is heartbreaking

theconsultingdramaqueen:

Okay but can you imagine John and Lestrade listening to this recording???

addignisherlock:

I almost hope they do. Especially John. Because I think hearing this will really remind them that Sherlock is still just human like everyone else. They seem to easily dehumanize Sherlock and see him as just an addict, or a cock, or a liar, or whatever. That they sometimes forget that Sherlock is human with fears and feelings too. So yeah I hope if John does listen to it, that John would realize how human Sherlock is. And I hope John won’t dismiss it simply as “it’s Sherlock. He’s a good liar”

vulgarweed:

What I get when I watch this scene is that it’s a MAJOR turning point for Sherlock.

As long as we’ve known him, he’s always been reckless with his own life. He’s willingly put himself at fatal risk so many times - yes, sometimes for love but also sometimes just a solve the puzzle, as we see in the ASiP.

His revelation here, and the moment when he breaks, is when he sees his own death in intimate terms, slow moving and close up, cruel and ugly and enjoying his terror and pain, with no redeeming motive of sacrifice just joy in destruction, demanding his attention and not allowing him to deflect or dissociate or intellectualize.

Sherlock breaks because he finally realizes that he is not ready for his life to end. It’s not even about John or Mycroft or anyone else close to him. It’s him realizing that death is the END, and he is not ready to end. He’s been suicidal and flirted with death for so long that he ceased to take death seriously. Now that he must, he knows for sure that he DOES NOT want it.

Sherlock does not want to die. And now even Sherlock knows this. 

I hope that in TFP, we’ll see Sherlock eager and willing to fight for his own life. Because he knows now that he’s important to himself. (As well as yet another belated realization once again of the fact that he’s no help to his loved ones if he’s dead, but that’s secondary.)

astudyinsavage:

If you were dying, if you’d been murdered, in your very last few seconds, what would you say? Please, God, let me live.