Tuesday 26 January 2016


Awkward Conversations 
(Sherlock Meta by Ivy Blossom)

Sherlock was high as a kite while in his fact-based Victorian fantasy, but if you accept that he was at least partially in control of it, if only enough to remain aware that it wasn’t real (at least most of the time), then he knew the conversation he endured with Watson in the greenhouse was his own projection. It was his subconscious getting personal.

Was it something he had been anticipating with some dread? Had he wanted to just get it over with? Or was it a kind of fantasy, something he wanted to happen? John has hinted at this sort of conversation before, though much more gently. Sherlock knows it might come up again, if the right circumstances occur. Does he prepare himself so that he has a witty retort on hand? Or is he longing for John to understand him, to know the degree to which he’s been lying about who and what he is, and guess the real dimensions of his very human heart?

Sherlock himself knows that the emotionless persona he adopts is a sham. He knows he has impulses, feelings, a desire for companionship and love. His subconscious is fighting him on his decision to remain alone and pretend it comes naturally to him. He projects John as the one to make these obvious deductions about him and confronting him about them. Does he want to be revealed? Or does he fear the revelation? Or both?

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